a few things has happened in a short duration. and now I am back in KK.
it feels very weird being back at home, after only a few months away.
however, it's great too as I can meet up some friends whom I would not be able to see usually at this time of the year. ppl like Ah Seng and Ah Wong, hopefully i can meet more ppl soon.
What has happened has happened. I could not change any of the outcome no matter how much i deny it to myself.
It is time to let it be, to move on. No matter how much it mattered to me, if it is only me, it bears no meaning. I tell myself to let it go and move on, and of coz to live life happily and to the fullest.
And for now, Merry Christmas and Happy New year 2010. (:
hope things change for the better for me now. and may you be safe and prosper! God Bless.
(somehow i m a bit reluctant to go to church... going to be hours n roasting! >< )
Thursday, 24 December 2009
Monday, 14 December 2009
goodbye grandma
i will miss you.all the memories I had of you. I will treasure them. I will tell stories about you to the future generation. Of how you came to Sabah from Guang Dong, China. Of your journey from there to Sandakan. Of the small cocoa plantation you and grandpa had, which I have such fond memories of. Everything that I can remember about u, from me as a young child, to the 24 year old me, I will let the future generation know.
婆婆, 安心上路。我會好好的過的。我會想你的. and you know well, that I will 上香 for you when I am in Lahad Datu or wherever I have the chance.
Tuesday, 8 December 2009
.
it was too good to be true probably.
現在就只有哭罷了。
哭到竟然鼻子流點血。tmd，我沒哭很多呀。搞什麽，我想盡情的哭，都不能？
一切，都變回本來的日子，本來的樣子。
痛，痛，痛。真的，很痛。
現在就只有哭罷了。
哭到竟然鼻子流點血。tmd，我沒哭很多呀。搞什麽，我想盡情的哭，都不能？
一切，都變回本來的日子，本來的樣子。
痛，痛，痛。真的，很痛。
Monday, 7 December 2009
more to worry
called home yesterday and found out my mum went to Lahad Datu. weird, i wasn't told before hand about that.
my grandmother is in hospital i was told and hence why mum is there now. Called mum's mobile and found out grandma's diabetic foot has gone worse. this time it's the left foot, not the right.
mum and aunt's voice seems worried. managed to talk to grandma a bit but only for.. 5 seconds? she was feeling very tired. the antibiotics and no appetite, surely will feel very weak and exhausted.
matters that seems i have to worry about is increasing. oh my. i was so tempted to post 擔心的東西又多了 in facebook, although i might feel better that would give unnecessary worry to other people. so posting it in my blog is the alternative.
i fear the worst, where my grandma's left foot has to be amputated. let's just hope the dressing and cleaning for now halts the spread of the infection and promotes healing.
more to worry, but this is life. get on with it... be strong. i worry about my mum and auntie as well. carers are no easy job... grant them strength and good health please, my Lord. and for my grandma, that she will recover from this well. amen. i still want to show her places i been to, people i met, food i tried and tasted, and also let her see me graduate pics... and people who is and are, around me.
my grandmother is in hospital i was told and hence why mum is there now. Called mum's mobile and found out grandma's diabetic foot has gone worse. this time it's the left foot, not the right.
mum and aunt's voice seems worried. managed to talk to grandma a bit but only for.. 5 seconds? she was feeling very tired. the antibiotics and no appetite, surely will feel very weak and exhausted.
matters that seems i have to worry about is increasing. oh my. i was so tempted to post 擔心的東西又多了 in facebook, although i might feel better that would give unnecessary worry to other people. so posting it in my blog is the alternative.
i fear the worst, where my grandma's left foot has to be amputated. let's just hope the dressing and cleaning for now halts the spread of the infection and promotes healing.
more to worry, but this is life. get on with it... be strong. i worry about my mum and auntie as well. carers are no easy job... grant them strength and good health please, my Lord. and for my grandma, that she will recover from this well. amen. i still want to show her places i been to, people i met, food i tried and tasted, and also let her see me graduate pics... and people who is and are, around me.
Thursday, 3 December 2009
revision?
this is the 4th day of my Paediatric week where I am based in paeds for the whole of the week at Liverpool dental hospital.
wanted to do some revision 4 the up coming mock exam. but i just couldn't motivate myself to do it. whole day doing dentistry, at night back also have to read it is really a bit boring. worse, i am not really be able to do much revision for the next few days and next week. dinner + going to nottingham then dinner again. IT IS DECEMBER!
in the end, i was revising Proposal Daisakusen （求婚大作戰）. haven't watch it for quite a while so I have forgot quite some bits. It was good to watch it though, as it was funny and was a good laugh.
for those who you who haven't watch it before, it is really worth a watch. it is 11 episodes long + 1 2 hour long special edition in response to the huge response from fans.
wanted to do some revision 4 the up coming mock exam. but i just couldn't motivate myself to do it. whole day doing dentistry, at night back also have to read it is really a bit boring. worse, i am not really be able to do much revision for the next few days and next week. dinner + going to nottingham then dinner again. IT IS DECEMBER!
in the end, i was revising Proposal Daisakusen （求婚大作戰）. haven't watch it for quite a while so I have forgot quite some bits. It was good to watch it though, as it was funny and was a good laugh.
for those who you who haven't watch it before, it is really worth a watch. it is 11 episodes long + 1 2 hour long special edition in response to the huge response from fans.
Sunday, 29 November 2009
Orchestra II
when the performance was better than a cd that i heard, there is no doubt, it's good.
went with a few frens to see the RLPO perform Brahms's Piano Concerto 2 and Tchaikovsky's symphony 4. and oh my word, the Tchaikovsky's symphony 4 under Vasily Petrenko's direction was just amazing. it was fresh, sharp and very well played. the audiences were electrified. one on the best performances i have seen so far.
I really like the Brahm's piano concerto 2, and seeing it performing live is just different from listening it to CD. Arcadi Volodos (the soloist/pianist) was quite flashy with his showmanship, but nothing detracts from his playing. it was amazing. (of course, he is performing this piece to every place he tours, but I am sure, everytime he plays it, it is different, and also, the orchestra is different). he interacted with the music played by the orchestra too. cool...
Brahm's 2nd piano concerto has much more to offer, much more composed than his first piano concerto, which was a mixture of darkness, bit eloquent and happiness. i think it was a piece that was very much for the future, instead of the mid 19 century. His 2nd piano concerto was a very much similar style to Beethoven's 5th Piano Concerto 'emperor'. there are similarities, but also distinctness of brahms in there. Beethoven's piano concertos are usually light and easy going (i think); while Brahms's piano concerto weights more, has more structure and the second sounded the finest to me, of all the piano concertos. yes, in my opinion, it is superior to Rachmaninov's 2nd piano concerto too. well.. still, they are all lovely pieces.
more piano concertos to discover too! gotta wait till i got the money to collect them haha. ah.. and a superb set of hi fi will be required. aiming for Naim.
that's one of the reasons why i am staying here for a bit more longer. europe is best for classical music, and I want to discover, know and learn more.
went with a few frens to see the RLPO perform Brahms's Piano Concerto 2 and Tchaikovsky's symphony 4. and oh my word, the Tchaikovsky's symphony 4 under Vasily Petrenko's direction was just amazing. it was fresh, sharp and very well played. the audiences were electrified. one on the best performances i have seen so far.
I really like the Brahm's piano concerto 2, and seeing it performing live is just different from listening it to CD. Arcadi Volodos (the soloist/pianist) was quite flashy with his showmanship, but nothing detracts from his playing. it was amazing. (of course, he is performing this piece to every place he tours, but I am sure, everytime he plays it, it is different, and also, the orchestra is different). he interacted with the music played by the orchestra too. cool...
Brahm's 2nd piano concerto has much more to offer, much more composed than his first piano concerto, which was a mixture of darkness, bit eloquent and happiness. i think it was a piece that was very much for the future, instead of the mid 19 century. His 2nd piano concerto was a very much similar style to Beethoven's 5th Piano Concerto 'emperor'. there are similarities, but also distinctness of brahms in there. Beethoven's piano concertos are usually light and easy going (i think); while Brahms's piano concerto weights more, has more structure and the second sounded the finest to me, of all the piano concertos. yes, in my opinion, it is superior to Rachmaninov's 2nd piano concerto too. well.. still, they are all lovely pieces.
more piano concertos to discover too! gotta wait till i got the money to collect them haha. ah.. and a superb set of hi fi will be required. aiming for Naim.
that's one of the reasons why i am staying here for a bit more longer. europe is best for classical music, and I want to discover, know and learn more.
Friday, 27 November 2009
who has the last laugh?
i think my elective work might be going to be presentd during the presentation day. that was what my supervisor told me. but i haven't heard from him for weeks. well, he's a very busy consultant, and I do really respect him a lot.
somehow i think my presentation will be laughed off. maybe because it's unrealistic, it's not really possible,it's not scientific enough, it's just cant be applied clinically. maybe. still, i am sure some will laugh on my work. i don't care though. it might work centuries later.
i also could imagine, some friends of mine, might laugh at my plan for my future after graduation. i plan to stay here, but not for long. a maximum of 2 years. this is the plan for NOW. it might change, i might stay for an even shorter time, or i might stay for an even longer time. who knows. back to the original plan, after 2 years, i plan to go back home. (making it a 2+3year plan) WHAT? i am sure people will say that. you want to go back home? crazy workloads, unorganized systems, no clear training pathways or specialist training pathways. are you mad? why not stay? why not go to Australia? why not this... n that. whatever. I intend to go back home, to be close to my parents. someone needs to be with them. be it that I am in West M'sia, i still can fly back whenever i wish to. i am sure some will think my plan is not thorough. maybe it is. but i am following my gut instinct. it is this that matters.
yes, people did laugh when the television was invented. it was predicted that there's no use for a television. I guess, to risk somethings for your future does warrant being laughed, or said that we are mad, but... who will have the last laugh in the end?
time will tell.
somehow i think my presentation will be laughed off. maybe because it's unrealistic, it's not really possible,it's not scientific enough, it's just cant be applied clinically. maybe. still, i am sure some will laugh on my work. i don't care though. it might work centuries later.
i also could imagine, some friends of mine, might laugh at my plan for my future after graduation. i plan to stay here, but not for long. a maximum of 2 years. this is the plan for NOW. it might change, i might stay for an even shorter time, or i might stay for an even longer time. who knows. back to the original plan, after 2 years, i plan to go back home. (making it a 2+3year plan) WHAT? i am sure people will say that. you want to go back home? crazy workloads, unorganized systems, no clear training pathways or specialist training pathways. are you mad? why not stay? why not go to Australia? why not this... n that. whatever. I intend to go back home, to be close to my parents. someone needs to be with them. be it that I am in West M'sia, i still can fly back whenever i wish to. i am sure some will think my plan is not thorough. maybe it is. but i am following my gut instinct. it is this that matters.
yes, people did laugh when the television was invented. it was predicted that there's no use for a television. I guess, to risk somethings for your future does warrant being laughed, or said that we are mad, but... who will have the last laugh in the end?
time will tell.
Sunday, 22 November 2009
orchestras!
don't know why this sudden burst of activities to blog. november's gonna have a record number of blogs.
got a 4 day off this weekend, Fri-Sat-Sun-Mon.
for once i felt BORED. things that i used to do doesn't seems that interesting.
i blame a certain someone haha u know who u r (u know i m jk coz i know u r juz x free on weekends).
is revising a bit to cope with the busy December time. but i m super duper slow in reading. not quite motivated. n because it's PERIO (gums) stuff.
Bought a ticket 4 tonight's Liverpool Philharmonic Youth Orchestra. havent hear them play before. N the colourful and vibrant Brahm's Symphony 2 is on the performance list. yummy. I wonder how will they sound? how good are they? what kind of interpretation will they play it?
it's just like buying a bottle of wine, guessing whether it's good, how it's going to taste, and whether it satisfies you. haha. yes, that's how classical music means to me.
Dreaming too.. to see more orchestra. I missed the London Symphony Orchestra (LSO), arguably the best orchestra in UK in October due to elective work. Also would like to see the Concertgebouw Orchestra in Amsterdam (順便看 sex shows, Wivy highly recommended LOL), Berlin Philharmonic, Vienna Philarhomic, Oslo Philharmonic, Gewandhaus Orchestra, and...?? strange, is that all that i can remember? anyway, can go europe to see them so it's great coz i can travel a bit too.
think i will plan that, once i work here. weekends or otherwise, will be much more interesting hopefully. and it's gonna be great, i am 'wine tasting' other countries' orchestras. brilliant.
i wonder which orchestra is the better ones in Far East Asia. Japan? Hong Kong? i better do some research.
got a 4 day off this weekend, Fri-Sat-Sun-Mon.
for once i felt BORED. things that i used to do doesn't seems that interesting.
i blame a certain someone haha u know who u r (u know i m jk coz i know u r juz x free on weekends).
is revising a bit to cope with the busy December time. but i m super duper slow in reading. not quite motivated. n because it's PERIO (gums) stuff.
Bought a ticket 4 tonight's Liverpool Philharmonic Youth Orchestra. havent hear them play before. N the colourful and vibrant Brahm's Symphony 2 is on the performance list. yummy. I wonder how will they sound? how good are they? what kind of interpretation will they play it?
it's just like buying a bottle of wine, guessing whether it's good, how it's going to taste, and whether it satisfies you. haha. yes, that's how classical music means to me.
Dreaming too.. to see more orchestra. I missed the London Symphony Orchestra (LSO), arguably the best orchestra in UK in October due to elective work. Also would like to see the Concertgebouw Orchestra in Amsterdam (順便看 sex shows, Wivy highly recommended LOL), Berlin Philharmonic, Vienna Philarhomic, Oslo Philharmonic, Gewandhaus Orchestra, and...?? strange, is that all that i can remember? anyway, can go europe to see them so it's great coz i can travel a bit too.
think i will plan that, once i work here. weekends or otherwise, will be much more interesting hopefully. and it's gonna be great, i am 'wine tasting' other countries' orchestras. brilliant.
i wonder which orchestra is the better ones in Far East Asia. Japan? Hong Kong? i better do some research.
Friday, 20 November 2009
unease?
hm
this is what happens when this happens.
i still haven't really recover from what was said by you.
the unease is still there, a bit.
apart from that, my decision making seems to be clouded. it is not as clear, as objective, as good.
arggghhh... i guess it affects me in more ways, and it was quite expected when this happens.
this is because it matters, and thus, my judgment needs to be even better, and thus a lousy feedback causing me to misjudge things, make the wrong decision on things.
silly. stupid. i got to stay cool, calm and collected and sharp.
i have to learn how to manage these, as this is your pattern, n becoz i want this to work.
i have to open up more to you a bit more too.
what the heck m i writing!? another blog tat seems not to make sense.
well, in my cousin's way of motivating oneself:
ROARRRRRRRRRRRRR
lion's roarrrRRRRR that is, haha.. i have a lion heart.
this is what happens when this happens.
i still haven't really recover from what was said by you.
the unease is still there, a bit.
apart from that, my decision making seems to be clouded. it is not as clear, as objective, as good.
arggghhh... i guess it affects me in more ways, and it was quite expected when this happens.
this is because it matters, and thus, my judgment needs to be even better, and thus a lousy feedback causing me to misjudge things, make the wrong decision on things.
silly. stupid. i got to stay cool, calm and collected and sharp.
i have to learn how to manage these, as this is your pattern, n becoz i want this to work.
i have to open up more to you a bit more too.
what the heck m i writing!? another blog tat seems not to make sense.
well, in my cousin's way of motivating oneself:
ROARRRRRRRRRRRRR
lion's roarrrRRRRR that is, haha.. i have a lion heart.
Thursday, 19 November 2009
Nottingham in December
will be going to Nottingham in 9/12 to meet up with eeffie, jason and shea yeong and hang around with them for eeffie's master degree convocation on the 10/12. gonna be a special day for her.
n i think it's jason's first time meeting her family haha. (nervous? XD)
good luck in getting a job here too. looking forward to see you all in december.
Yet, there's an annoying formative exam (like a mock exam) on the 14 and 15/12 so I have to do some degree of reading prior to going to nottingham. argh, i am reluctant to go all out for the formative exam. don't need to, and don't want to, just so that i can know which area is my weakness, and i could rectify it b4 my finals.
finals, geesh. let's not think about it for the moment.
another matter too, the planned roadtrip has to be cancelled as my friends have some last minute arrangements. so cant do it now. aiyo... what should I do with my 2 weeks holiday? i really yearn for some kind of traveling b4 doing serious revision for dentistry in january. AHHHH.... seems that I am going to be stuck in liverpool >< what to do? hmmm... in a way it's a good thing. i think i know what i can do then haha.
bought Brahm's Symphonies (1-4,complete) conducted by Furtwangler from amazon. has been itching to add this into my collection, it is claimed to be THE recordings of brahm's symphonies. I am eagerly waiting for it to be delivered. somehow, i think this recording will INCREASE in it's value many years to come. haha. SS , in melissa's term. 妄想, i guess lol. for those of you who likes/want to know more about classical music, dont start with brahms first. it could be too emotional, drains u quite a bit. start with mozart and beethoven, then expand from there (: which i have done.
n i think it's jason's first time meeting her family haha. (nervous? XD)
good luck in getting a job here too. looking forward to see you all in december.
Yet, there's an annoying formative exam (like a mock exam) on the 14 and 15/12 so I have to do some degree of reading prior to going to nottingham. argh, i am reluctant to go all out for the formative exam. don't need to, and don't want to, just so that i can know which area is my weakness, and i could rectify it b4 my finals.
another matter too, the planned roadtrip has to be cancelled as my friends have some last minute arrangements. so cant do it now. aiyo... what should I do with my 2 weeks holiday? i really yearn for some kind of traveling b4 doing serious revision for dentistry in january. AHHHH.... seems that I am going to be stuck in liverpool >< what to do? hmmm... in a way it's a good thing. i think i know what i can do then haha.
bought Brahm's Symphonies (1-4,complete) conducted by Furtwangler from amazon. has been itching to add this into my collection, it is claimed to be THE recordings of brahm's symphonies. I am eagerly waiting for it to be delivered. somehow, i think this recording will INCREASE in it's value many years to come. haha. SS , in melissa's term. 妄想, i guess lol. for those of you who likes/want to know more about classical music, dont start with brahms first. it could be too emotional, drains u quite a bit. start with mozart and beethoven, then expand from there (: which i have done.
Thursday, 12 November 2009
toilet paper - kedekut?
hey, it's a blog about toilet paper.
unbelievable.
the thing that i don't understand is i have to buy the toilet paper, but my flatmate also happily uses it, a lot. gosh, can't you buy your own? every previous flatmates did that, why not you?
i know it's not very expensive, toilet paper, and have been generous to let you use it for 3 months.
hm... somehow i have an idea.
hide all my toilet papers, pop a diarrhoea tablet 2 his milk. HAHA.
evil. revenge is sweet.
anyway, it is just a silly idea. wont b doing it of course. guess those who cant afford toilet paper, i have to be kind to them and be generous.
unbelievable.
the thing that i don't understand is i have to buy the toilet paper, but my flatmate also happily uses it, a lot. gosh, can't you buy your own? every previous flatmates did that, why not you?
i know it's not very expensive, toilet paper, and have been generous to let you use it for 3 months.
hm... somehow i have an idea.
evil. revenge is sweet.
anyway, it is just a silly idea. wont b doing it of course. guess those who cant afford toilet paper, i have to be kind to them and be generous.
Sunday, 8 November 2009
thursday, friday and saturday
it had been a turbulent three days. almost all emotions were experienced during those three days. so much feelings gone through, sleepless night, so much being thought.
i am happy tho, for fri and sat... it was fun and was really full of moments of happiness.
n now, i could only pray to God, that we can hang around for a much much longer time. please. please. amen.
i am happy tho, for fri and sat... it was fun and was really full of moments of happiness.
n now, i could only pray to God, that we can hang around for a much much longer time. please. please. amen.
Thursday, 5 November 2009
self reminder
wivinia once told me: 是你的，就會是你的。
sometimes, there is no need to rush, no need to say it out, for it will be understood. regret or not, is something so difficult to say at this time.
i'll take my time, and judge and show what i have to offer. knowing wat 2 say at the right time and when not to say things, sometimes seems simple, but it is not. it seems all i could do, is just keep that feelings to myself, for the time 2 say it, is nowhere to be known. but i will fight...
i should take things easy, and not worry about the outcome.
better just enjoy what's happening, and be prepared for what might happen, even though it might end up being painful.
doesn't seems to make sense. oh well... this is the emotion i m going thru now.
sometimes, there is no need to rush, no need to say it out, for it will be understood. regret or not, is something so difficult to say at this time.
i'll take my time, and judge and show what i have to offer. knowing wat 2 say at the right time and when not to say things, sometimes seems simple, but it is not. it seems all i could do, is just keep that feelings to myself, for the time 2 say it, is nowhere to be known. but i will fight...
i should take things easy, and not worry about the outcome.
better just enjoy what's happening, and be prepared for what might happen, even though it might end up being painful.
doesn't seems to make sense. oh well... this is the emotion i m going thru now.
Wednesday, 4 November 2009
最能让男人享受的零花费浪漫方式
真在讀著這一篇星洲的男女說，
讀到這一句 “只要有爱情在，麵包会有的” 時，我立刻笑了。誰會這樣說呀？
應該沒有聽過這樣的一句。
想了想，倒又是時真的，愛一個人，當然要她（他）吃好的，天天吃得飽。（但現在的女孩子都比較小吃）
可是，那一句，應該是說成，“只要愛情在，就不會餓肚子”吧!
星洲的男女戰國，挺好讀的，但是偶爾太過不現實啦,太ideal了。得空的話，請看一看吧。按那個title就可以了，或者按這一個link: http://www.sinchew-i.com/liveoutloud/taxonomy/term/65
讀到這一句 “只要有爱情在，麵包会有的” 時，我立刻笑了。誰會這樣說呀？
應該沒有聽過這樣的一句。
想了想，倒又是時真的，愛一個人，當然要她（他）吃好的，天天吃得飽。（但現在的女孩子都比較小吃）
可是，那一句，應該是說成，“只要愛情在，就不會餓肚子”吧!
星洲的男女戰國，挺好讀的，但是偶爾太過不現實啦,太ideal了。得空的話，請看一看吧。按那個title就可以了，或者按這一個link: http://www.sinchew-i.com/liveoutloud/taxonomy/term/65
Sunday, 1 November 2009
careless
b4 i slept last nite
i just realise i forgot to take down the picture.
OH NO! OMG! T.T
things might be a bit more unpredictable now. AHHHHHHHH.
Have to make sure I am in control of the plot... if not. aiihh...
i just realise i forgot to take down the picture.
OH NO! OMG! T.T
things might be a bit more unpredictable now. AHHHHHHHH.
Have to make sure I am in control of the plot... if not. aiihh...
Thursday, 29 October 2009
Jason n Eeffie @ scouseland
jason and eeffie dropped by on tuesday evening for a night in liverpool. was really glad to see them and chat quite a bit with them. havent see them for months! n i should be visiting Nott on Dec to see eeffie's graduation ceremony :D
took some pics with them, and Jason loved GBK (i just randomly chose to go there to be honest, since they got a very good promotion!)
The author is getting really bald ><
with the couple in front of me flat
Muahahaha... Habanero burger, recommended!
me and the mint lamb burger! yummy!
GBK - Jason really loved it. glad.
took some pics with them, and Jason loved GBK (i just randomly chose to go there to be honest, since they got a very good promotion!)
The author is getting really bald ><
with the couple in front of me flat
Muahahaha... Habanero burger, recommended!
me and the mint lamb burger! yummy!
GBK - Jason really loved it. glad.Tuesday, 27 October 2009
wow
had a quick word with my supervisor today about my elective.
he told me my work could be published, quite possibly.
i was shocked. really shocked. i didn't aim to do the report to that level at all.
now, i better smooth out some parts of it, and make it better. wow. that feeling is still sinking in.
he told me my work could be published, quite possibly.
i was shocked. really shocked. i didn't aim to do the report to that level at all.
now, i better smooth out some parts of it, and make it better. wow. that feeling is still sinking in.
Saturday, 24 October 2009
follow the flow
hm... even I myself is unsure. so what u read here, could be just plain wrong stuffs, except the part about my cousin's quote and the following things.
somehow, I felt different these days... the direction, seems sure. But I am afraid the way I see it is becoming subjective and not objective. will my judgment be the correct one? am i seeing things the right way it is? did i miss something or did i pick up something that I have noticed a bit too much myself? is tat the old self of me, reappearing??? tat is what, I fear most. tat was a destructive part of me, me tat was too dependent, me tat was childish and not useful.
hopefully, things will b clearer when time goes on a bit.
but surely, it's something I haven't felt for a long time. It changed me, in a very little way. what will happen then in the future?? surely, i don't want to be the old me, tat was full of the wrong things for that. i want this, to work, until the end of time comes.
A funny quote from my cousin's blog:
today my cheeky quotes application says:
I love being married. It's so great to find that one special person you want to annoy for the rest of your life - Rita Rudner
Congratulations to Melissa and Jensen, who seems to fit this really well! you are not alone though! i m sure Shannon n Dih with their gf will be following your footsteps XD
somehow, I felt different these days... the direction, seems sure. But I am afraid the way I see it is becoming subjective and not objective. will my judgment be the correct one? am i seeing things the right way it is? did i miss something or did i pick up something that I have noticed a bit too much myself? is tat the old self of me, reappearing??? tat is what, I fear most. tat was a destructive part of me, me tat was too dependent, me tat was childish and not useful.
hopefully, things will b clearer when time goes on a bit.
but surely, it's something I haven't felt for a long time. It changed me, in a very little way. what will happen then in the future?? surely, i don't want to be the old me, tat was full of the wrong things for that. i want this, to work, until the end of time comes.
A funny quote from my cousin's blog:
today my cheeky quotes application says:
I love being married. It's so great to find that one special person you want to annoy for the rest of your life - Rita Rudner
Congratulations to Melissa and Jensen, who seems to fit this really well! you are not alone though! i m sure Shannon n Dih with their gf will be following your footsteps XD
Friday, 16 October 2009
Accident & Emergency week
I was in the A&E (accident & emergency) deparment of the Royal Liverpool University Hospital (RLUH) from Tue-Fri as part of my course in final year.
why A&E in a hospital? why so far away from the dental area? I could only say it's a requirement for dental students to be attached there for 4 days.
was quite worried the day before, as I have no idea wat so ever I am going to deal with. what kind of medics n staffs are there? the patients etc. would i need to cannulate? would i need 2 do CPR? my anatomy apart from the head and neck, is really really basic.
Well, basically, being there was to observe and see stuffs, to learn from the A&E staffs, and to be like...a nurse ha, well, basically help out with the 5th year medical students. they too struggled at times for IV access, draw bloods and take blood gas; we dental students sometimes struggle with local anaesthesia ( i was, now much improved), struggle with taking tooth out. so, we are at the similar level of the learning curve.
Saw a handful of medical emergencies which was good experience. A stroke pt who cant breathe on her own; an elderly man who was in ventricular tachycardia (VT) who lost consciousness in resus and was shocked and got back into sinus rhythm fortunately. then another elderly woman, whom i was standing in front of her unit, was quite ok when I saw her. Suddenly I heard a wheezing noise, then saw her collapse to her bed. she was moved to resus, had CPR, then shocked, CPR, adrenaline given and then have a pulse back. phew. she wasn't quite well after a detailed examination. very swollen ankles, a sign of severe heart failure n she got a temperature too, so some infection was going on. I guess that was me being closest to see death, in front of me. The medical emergencies were quite an exposure, and I have learnt quite a bit of things from it. hopefully, i do not need 2 manage these cases when I work as a dentist.
having done A&E, I do realise that I have an interest in medicine. i quite enjoyed looking at chest x ray, wrist etc. doing bloods is alright for me too. at the moment, i dont see the point of doing medicine for the near future. holding a dental n medicine degree does make you qualify for maxillo-facial surgery, but that's not what i want to do, i am sure. Oral medicine? hm, a bit too boring for me. doens't seems to do any good holding dental n medicine degree! I know and I want to do Oral Surgery and I don't really need to do medicine for that. but we never know the future, UMS has medicine course, so if I want to do it, it's at home! great! it would be even brilliant if UMS opens a dental school, I can work and teach there!
now, to get back to my normal routine of things, the dental side of things. not going to be as heroic as the A&E medics, but I like doing things around the head n neck more.
why A&E in a hospital? why so far away from the dental area? I could only say it's a requirement for dental students to be attached there for 4 days.
was quite worried the day before, as I have no idea wat so ever I am going to deal with. what kind of medics n staffs are there? the patients etc. would i need to cannulate? would i need 2 do CPR? my anatomy apart from the head and neck, is really really basic.
Well, basically, being there was to observe and see stuffs, to learn from the A&E staffs, and to be like...a nurse ha, well, basically help out with the 5th year medical students. they too struggled at times for IV access, draw bloods and take blood gas; we dental students sometimes struggle with local anaesthesia ( i was, now much improved), struggle with taking tooth out. so, we are at the similar level of the learning curve.
Saw a handful of medical emergencies which was good experience. A stroke pt who cant breathe on her own; an elderly man who was in ventricular tachycardia (VT) who lost consciousness in resus and was shocked and got back into sinus rhythm fortunately. then another elderly woman, whom i was standing in front of her unit, was quite ok when I saw her. Suddenly I heard a wheezing noise, then saw her collapse to her bed. she was moved to resus, had CPR, then shocked, CPR, adrenaline given and then have a pulse back. phew. she wasn't quite well after a detailed examination. very swollen ankles, a sign of severe heart failure n she got a temperature too, so some infection was going on. I guess that was me being closest to see death, in front of me. The medical emergencies were quite an exposure, and I have learnt quite a bit of things from it. hopefully, i do not need 2 manage these cases when I work as a dentist.
having done A&E, I do realise that I have an interest in medicine. i quite enjoyed looking at chest x ray, wrist etc. doing bloods is alright for me too. at the moment, i dont see the point of doing medicine for the near future. holding a dental n medicine degree does make you qualify for maxillo-facial surgery, but that's not what i want to do, i am sure. Oral medicine? hm, a bit too boring for me. doens't seems to do any good holding dental n medicine degree! I know and I want to do Oral Surgery and I don't really need to do medicine for that. but we never know the future, UMS has medicine course, so if I want to do it, it's at home! great! it would be even brilliant if UMS opens a dental school, I can work and teach there!
now, to get back to my normal routine of things, the dental side of things. not going to be as heroic as the A&E medics, but I like doing things around the head n neck more.
Friday, 9 October 2009
Europe - The Vibrant, The Rich, The Messy, The Fun Loving
Part of RomeSeen a lot of pictures of friends who went to Europe lately, especially from Wivinia. Had spent the entire evening watching pictures with her few weeks ago! amazing. yes the pictures are amazing but the places are even more so!
long have i wanted to go to europe, to see n listen n taste n feel the different rich cultures europe possess (pickpocket as well, but bcoz I am Malaysia-trained, just imagine KL, so should be ok), yet I have only been to 2 countries, Ireland and France. I don regard Ireland as Europe enough as it's very similar 2 UK. Do like Irish music and the countryside tho, dont get me wrong. France, even till now, I really like the language of French.
I am determined, very determined, to do my Europe trip before/after my graduation. the more time the better. I don care even if i do it alone(1 of the reasons i didn't embark mine for the past few years), i don mind doing it alone. But on the brighter note YS might be joining (must do it in Amsterdam YS, we must go see the show!) and I still have some KK frens in manchester, might 'pancing' / '溜' them to join me. really hope we can go over a lot of places in europe that time, summer 2010.
Was thinking of going to see Neuschwanstein Castle / New Swan Castle in Bavaria, Munich, Germany for the x'mas holz, but it's not cheap. might just do a big scotland wales england roadtrip instead. When i saw pictures of Germany, the River Rhine, Heiderberg ( or something like tat), n BEAUFORT in Luxemborg <-haha , no, germany in general, i really like the feel. it's pretty, it's just breath taking! Planning and hoping to bring my parents to see Neuschwanstein Castle when they are over, and Rome. hopefully, hopefully.
People have always adored Australia. Yes i like it there as well, but it's lacking something, something of a mixture, some dimension. I can go to France for a weekend, go skiing in the Italian Alps, Swiss Alps, those aren't things you can really do in Australia for a weekend. Then again, if you don't like Europe, the arguments go the other way. But Europe, (western, specifically) is so rich of history,culture,music, and food. it's a good breakaway, where you want something different, something that offers a challenge, somewhere that doesn't speak English, Mandarin (cantonese is fine haha). Yes, Europe is 古老, and it is here, where we heard so much of the stories of our childhood times, stories in games.
Eventho sometimes life is a bit bored, a bit of a pain over here, i still relinquish it. Probably I like being different. When loads of people go 2 place X and Y , I go to place A. This way, it makes it harder for me, but hey, we learn most during the hard times. If everything is already in place, organized for you, what have you to learn? You might argue, why learn so much?
it's because I believe we are all here to learn from this world and the world, is our teacher.
Wednesday, 30 September 2009
解偉苓 - 放逐愛情
這一首歌，很好聽。謝謝曉婷的介紹
對這一首歌的歌詞特別有同感的，有這一句：
被放逐在寒冷的邊際
同鄉的朋友都走了，感覺特別冷。稍微感冒了，是因為那天吹了很久的冷風。冬天，過多幾個月就來臨了。
怎麼感覺內外都冷呀。
臥薪嚐膽，我會成為更好，更強，更有能力的男人。
不公平
我每次都覺得感情事上，我都處於不利之處。喜歡的人，不是要走了就是遠距離。
現在呢，我覺得我應該放的下。好好地先過一個人的日子吧。雖然，我心偶爾看了出雙入對的人，會有點羡慕。現在自身難保哈。我想，我人生還在等著一個很重要的女人。這，我相信。
得趕功課。拜拜
Saturday, 26 September 2009
R-a-n-D-O-M
random things... that came across to my mind for the past few day
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I
I am an unforgiving person. those who r 'kicked out' of my circle of frens, rarely gets back. i don care literally. those who r unworthy of becoming my frens, will never enter my heart, hardly regain my trust and friendship. Yes, i know we make mistakes. if u do come with a sincere heart to apologize, u will be forgiven, for tat is wat the Lord taught. But, surely, I do find rebuilding trust a very hard issue. I will be damned by God, for I judge too much. o'Lord, have mercy on us.
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II
II
Had some friends over this past week. Wivinia, MY n Wei Lun was here on last fri and mon ; then Yuan Chin, Elze n Ai Yin was here yesterday (fri) for a short day trip. It is always pleasant to have friends around. I suppose when you want happiness, sadness comes along as well. I really don like sending friends off. because... I go back alone again, I will miss the warmth of people around you. After this last visit from Wivinia this weekend, I guess the coldness of winter will remind me of life back to the usual. flat life, so boring!
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III
III
Has been improving my making tiramisu skill. Used Marsala wine for the first time, n it was quite a different tiramisu from the alcohol-less tiramisu! wow... glad i tried it! gotta make sure the small bits r right, like how much sugar etc. after tat to learn other cakes i think. unlikely until after i grad i think! too busy now with z course!
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IV
IV
Sometimes I think life is making a joke to me (like yesterday). sometimes things juz are not right so I shouldn't do it, but it ends up making me feeling 欲哭無淚. i do wonder, whether saying it out makes me feel better, eventho the outcome would not be changed. so emo last night...
gotta go back 2 do elective! a lot needs 2 be done for it, and not a lot of time is left.
gotta go back 2 do elective! a lot needs 2 be done for it, and not a lot of time is left.
Monday, 21 September 2009
变 • Change
突然感觉，好像有些东西，真在朝向变化。变质，可能是更准确的说法。
友谊关系，爱情关系，怎么说呢，就像个小盆的花吧。始终需要呵护照顾，花才会茁壮成长。花没有好的照顾，再怎样努力生长，都不回长得壮。积极的一面，就是幸亏，只要有人肯照顾，就会好好的长。in a nutshell，很多东西，都是要两方面努力的。
生活忙碌，就像我们人们，忘了抽出时间去好好的栽培那些花。
朋友啊，记得，花点时间去联系你重要的朋友吧。
还有TMD鑫棣，真的很想和你一起喝茶聊天呀！
对了，朋友的朋友的朋友二十多岁因车祸不辛与世长辞。壮志未酬身先死，好可惜。 RIP。人生无常人呀。 要快快乐乐的过日子啊。还有，请珍惜眼前人。
友谊关系，爱情关系，怎么说呢，就像个小盆的花吧。始终需要呵护照顾，花才会茁壮成长。花没有好的照顾，再怎样努力生长，都不回长得壮。积极的一面，就是幸亏，只要有人肯照顾，就会好好的长。in a nutshell，很多东西，都是要两方面努力的。
生活忙碌，就像我们人们，忘了抽出时间去好好的栽培那些花。
朋友啊，记得，花点时间去联系你重要的朋友吧。
还有TMD鑫棣，真的很想和你一起喝茶聊天呀！
对了，朋友的朋友的朋友二十多岁因车祸不辛与世长辞。壮志未酬身先死，好可惜。 RIP。人生无常人呀。 要快快乐乐的过日子啊。还有，请珍惜眼前人。
Thursday, 10 September 2009
FnF ; music... music... classical
just b4 i begin, just want to say: I miss home comfort, I miss my frens!! ahhhh... i miss you all! eating together, chatting, zat-ing, everything!! there was so many i wanted to do, yet not all was done. wat an unsatisfied return trip back home this time was. again, I MISS YOU ALL AHHH. there, a bit, a bit better.
now, let's talk about something else. so, tukar topic liao!
in order to listen 2 good music... you need a good set of stuffs. i.e. cd player, preamp, amp, (or integrated amp), speakers and cables. that's the basics of hi-fi.
was thinking of getting a fatman itube with bookshelf speakers at one point as I was a bit unsatisfied by the really good Harman/Kardon Soundsticks II. However, I changed my mind and decided to stick to my Harman/Kardon, as i noticed bookshelf speakers might not really give me the depth, definition, and clarity I was seeking. I guess, I will properly invest in a good & upgradable Hi-Fi when i start work. Naim XS series, is the one I desire. Cyrus? Seems a bit too out of reach.
The Harman/Kardon Soundstick II I own at the moment. cool isnt it
The award winnings Fatman itube, specifically designed for Ipod (check compatibility)
Bought some new classical cds when I got back. Listened 2 Brahms' complete symphonies and my, all four of them are brilliant. heard Sym 1 before in a concert and a bit in Nodame Cantabile but the rest was rather, unfamiliar, or I knew a some of them but not all of them and their names. Was really satisfied with this, and of course, the Harman/Kardon reproduced them to my satisfaction ( need 2 up the volume a bit haha)
N if u fancy buying a classical cd, try Rimsky's Korsakov's Sheherezade, by Kirov Orchestra (now know as Mariinsky Theatre Orchestra) conducted by Valery Gergiev. 4 movements taken from some of the tales of A Thousand and One Nights of Arabia. exotic, isn't it? go on... give it a try ha. surely u will like the 3rd movement: The Young Prince and Princess.
now, let's talk about something else. so, tukar topic liao!
in order to listen 2 good music... you need a good set of stuffs. i.e. cd player, preamp, amp, (or integrated amp), speakers and cables. that's the basics of hi-fi.
was thinking of getting a fatman itube with bookshelf speakers at one point as I was a bit unsatisfied by the really good Harman/Kardon Soundsticks II. However, I changed my mind and decided to stick to my Harman/Kardon, as i noticed bookshelf speakers might not really give me the depth, definition, and clarity I was seeking. I guess, I will properly invest in a good & upgradable Hi-Fi when i start work. Naim XS series, is the one I desire. Cyrus? Seems a bit too out of reach.
The Harman/Kardon Soundstick II I own at the moment. cool isnt it
The award winnings Fatman itube, specifically designed for Ipod (check compatibility)Bought some new classical cds when I got back. Listened 2 Brahms' complete symphonies and my, all four of them are brilliant. heard Sym 1 before in a concert and a bit in Nodame Cantabile but the rest was rather, unfamiliar, or I knew a some of them but not all of them and their names. Was really satisfied with this, and of course, the Harman/Kardon reproduced them to my satisfaction ( need 2 up the volume a bit haha)
N if u fancy buying a classical cd, try Rimsky's Korsakov's Sheherezade, by Kirov Orchestra (now know as Mariinsky Theatre Orchestra) conducted by Valery Gergiev. 4 movements taken from some of the tales of A Thousand and One Nights of Arabia. exotic, isn't it? go on... give it a try ha. surely u will like the 3rd movement: The Young Prince and Princess.
Monday, 31 August 2009
下雨寫的blog
晚上十一點半，路陽下著大雨。
算是有感而發的blog
還有兩天，我又得回英國了。有點期待，也有點煩。期待那邊的生活，煩著要趕的論文,一點都還沒開始。
也有點不捨，畢竟，想陪著父母； 跟著朋友吃喝玩樂，一起笑，一起煩，討論東西。
連續兩晚去 1B GSC看戲，感覺有點新鮮。和laughing哥的戲完全沒有緣分，去了兩次都看不到。有點失望，但也沒有力氣再去1B的GSC了。禮拜二晚上，有機會，我去吧。Lisa，free up 你的 Tuesday night！
在戲院買票時，看到很多couple，出雙入對，感覺很羡慕，非常的羡慕哈。我的朋友沒說錯我，我確實很想有個女朋友。但沒喜歡的，就是沒喜歡的。亞庇的女孩子，確實有的很漂亮。不知這一次回去英國有沒有桃花運？
和Lisa，國彬和雞蛋（客家）混在一起的日子，挺開心的。雞蛋講話有時是讓我們很沒有力，但有他的邏輯，只是我們覺得沒有必要在KK用這邏輯。有時覺得Lisa挺寂寞，因為沒有女孩子可以和她聊她喜歡的東西，八東西。
和Tham混的日子也不錯。她有點像我姨姨的性格。奇怪的就是我們這一堆朋友，就只有我一個男的。有Tham 在就好一點，她的大姐款，就讓我覺得我不是唯一的男孩子。笑話也多很多。
在這裡的日子，過的算不錯。以後不知幾時會回來，也不知誰去誰留。但長久的打算，我大概概念有了。就看這一兩年，有什麽變化，計畫就跟著改變。
在Liverpool房間裡的CD和影響系統，我就快回去啦。那邊，應該沒有想我的人。哈哈。
算是有感而發的blog
還有兩天，我又得回英國了。有點期待，也有點煩。期待那邊的生活，煩著要趕的論文,一點都還沒開始。
也有點不捨，畢竟，想陪著父母； 跟著朋友吃喝玩樂，一起笑，一起煩，討論東西。
連續兩晚去 1B GSC看戲，感覺有點新鮮。和laughing哥的戲完全沒有緣分，去了兩次都看不到。有點失望，但也沒有力氣再去1B的GSC了。禮拜二晚上，有機會，我去吧。Lisa，free up 你的 Tuesday night！
在戲院買票時，看到很多couple，出雙入對，感覺很羡慕，非常的羡慕哈。我的朋友沒說錯我，我確實很想有個女朋友。但沒喜歡的，就是沒喜歡的。亞庇的女孩子，確實有的很漂亮。不知這一次回去英國有沒有桃花運？
和Lisa，國彬和雞蛋（客家）混在一起的日子，挺開心的。雞蛋講話有時是讓我們很沒有力，但有他的邏輯，只是我們覺得沒有必要在KK用這邏輯。有時覺得Lisa挺寂寞，因為沒有女孩子可以和她聊她喜歡的東西，八東西。
和Tham混的日子也不錯。她有點像我姨姨的性格。奇怪的就是我們這一堆朋友，就只有我一個男的。有Tham 在就好一點，她的大姐款，就讓我覺得我不是唯一的男孩子。笑話也多很多。
在這裡的日子，過的算不錯。以後不知幾時會回來，也不知誰去誰留。但長久的打算，我大概概念有了。就看這一兩年，有什麽變化，計畫就跟著改變。
在Liverpool房間裡的CD和影響系統，我就快回去啦。那邊，應該沒有想我的人。哈哈。
Friday, 28 August 2009
summer break
I have been back for about 3 weeks now. The other way of saying it is there's 6 days left before I return to Liverpool for my final year.
It's been a quite a problematic return for me. Since I got back, I've seen various doctors for 5 times in about 3 weeks time. Seems to equal the no. of doctors i seen in UK for 4 years @_@ N there's stilla sinus pain that occurs randomly and gives me headache. haiz
On the other hand, I met quite a no. of frens, the usual frens that I find when I get back, n some friends that I haven't met for ages as well, such as 芳芳 n ah hock. only downside this time is I only had the chance to meet some friends only once, like amanda n grace. ahh... still, able to see them was great n happy.
Went up Tun Fuad Hill early in the morning today with tham, 芳芳, shirley and 芳芳's fren grace. Havent been up there for 2/3 years i think. Seeing Mt Kinabalu was a relished reward as I have not seen Mt Kinabalu since I got back. Hip was doing better than I thought too. phew.
Wishing that I can drive to Tamparuli/Tuaran/Karambunai sometime b4 i go back.. but dunno find who haha. and i really want to go to Tg Aru! listen sound of wave, eat satay, n... fruits! XD
It's been a quite a problematic return for me. Since I got back, I've seen various doctors for 5 times in about 3 weeks time. Seems to equal the no. of doctors i seen in UK for 4 years @_@ N there's stilla sinus pain that occurs randomly and gives me headache. haiz
On the other hand, I met quite a no. of frens, the usual frens that I find when I get back, n some friends that I haven't met for ages as well, such as 芳芳 n ah hock. only downside this time is I only had the chance to meet some friends only once, like amanda n grace. ahh... still, able to see them was great n happy.
Went up Tun Fuad Hill early in the morning today with tham, 芳芳, shirley and 芳芳's fren grace. Havent been up there for 2/3 years i think. Seeing Mt Kinabalu was a relished reward as I have not seen Mt Kinabalu since I got back. Hip was doing better than I thought too. phew.
Wishing that I can drive to Tamparuli/Tuaran/Karambunai sometime b4 i go back.. but dunno find who haha. and i really want to go to Tg Aru! listen sound of wave, eat satay, n... fruits! XD
Monday, 10 August 2009
生病 n no power
回到家了。第一個感覺是，空氣怎麼感覺不一樣？第二天，知道是煙霧搞得禍。
回到家的二天，喉嚨痛了。過後流鼻涕，再過後，盡然發燒。
differential diagnosis？
1. flu
2. h1n1 flu
兩個，其實沒什麼很大的差別，可現在的風氣，都是指向 H1N1. TMD.
六天，看了兩個醫生。第二個醫生給了消炎藥，病情終於好轉了。所以，很肯定不是 H1N1了。我想大概有兩年沒感冒了，這一次一次過還清！慘。
病了這麼多天，都錯過了去遇到一些朋友，他們都回去新加坡了。可惜呀。因為我相當肯定我們明年是不大可能碰面了。
悶死我啦。真的很想出去吃板面，看朋友呀!我禮拜天去拿篤，禮拜五才回來，時間剩下不多了呀
對了，回來亞庇后，竟然一個禮拜停了五次電，其中三次是白天。糟糕呀！我看我們市民應該想想自己去發電了。太陽能，風能，水能（多雨時），都應該發展研究。至少我們自己發電，長期是省錢，又環保。至少，停電時，我們還有一點電！jensen, 國彬，你們快點研究呀！
回到家的二天，喉嚨痛了。過後流鼻涕，再過後，盡然發燒。
differential diagnosis？
1. flu
2. h1n1 flu
兩個，其實沒什麼很大的差別，可現在的風氣，都是指向 H1N1. TMD.
六天，看了兩個醫生。第二個醫生給了消炎藥，病情終於好轉了。所以，很肯定不是 H1N1了。我想大概有兩年沒感冒了，這一次一次過還清！慘。
病了這麼多天，都錯過了去遇到一些朋友，他們都回去新加坡了。可惜呀。因為我相當肯定我們明年是不大可能碰面了。
悶死我啦。真的很想出去吃板面，看朋友呀!我禮拜天去拿篤，禮拜五才回來，時間剩下不多了呀
對了，回來亞庇后，竟然一個禮拜停了五次電，其中三次是白天。糟糕呀！我看我們市民應該想想自己去發電了。太陽能，風能，水能（多雨時），都應該發展研究。至少我們自己發電，長期是省錢，又環保。至少，停電時，我們還有一點電！jensen, 國彬，你們快點研究呀！
Thursday, 30 July 2009
她 • 火車 •火車站
因為她，我大概明白了一見鍾情的意思。
因為她，我也明白了有緣無分。
第一次遇到她的時候是在火車上。第一眼覺得她沒什麼特別； 第二眼，咦？是我喜歡的類型呀； 第三眼，越看越可愛。我很生氣我自己，錯過了和她說話的機會，錯過了認識她的機會。機會，明明是有的，我卻這樣錯過了。木。
今天，在火車站賣票處排隊時再一次遇見她。身高，體型，頭髮，真的是完全我喜歡的那種類型。打扮挺香港的，英語也是香港音。就只能這樣看著她，然後她就這樣走了。所以我說，真的是有緣無分呀。氣死我了。
我，第一次，真的非常非常想要去認識她。起碼，能夠有一個開始。
還會有第三次嗎？我想，除非真的是命中註定，她，就只能成為我回憶中的一部份了。
至少，我現在明白了，當你真的要一個人的時候的那個感覺。真的真的很想很想要的那個feel。
除了她，也有另外一個她，能夠給我差不多一樣的感覺吧，我想。
因為她，我也明白了有緣無分。
第一次遇到她的時候是在火車上。第一眼覺得她沒什麼特別； 第二眼，咦？是我喜歡的類型呀； 第三眼，越看越可愛。我很生氣我自己，錯過了和她說話的機會，錯過了認識她的機會。機會，明明是有的，我卻這樣錯過了。木。
今天，在火車站賣票處排隊時再一次遇見她。身高，體型，頭髮，真的是完全我喜歡的那種類型。打扮挺香港的，英語也是香港音。就只能這樣看著她，然後她就這樣走了。所以我說，真的是有緣無分呀。氣死我了。
我，第一次，真的非常非常想要去認識她。起碼，能夠有一個開始。
還會有第三次嗎？我想，除非真的是命中註定，她，就只能成為我回憶中的一部份了。
至少，我現在明白了，當你真的要一個人的時候的那個感覺。真的真的很想很想要的那個feel。
除了她，也有另外一個她，能夠給我差不多一樣的感覺吧，我想。
Tuesday, 28 July 2009
Hi Fi!
BEHOLD, the B&W Zeppelin. BEAUUTTTYYYY
isn't it just a beauty? what matter most is how it sounds
think i'm going to pop down to John Lewis and have a look at the real thing tmr!
been chilling properly tonight ( still felt uneasy) so looked around hi fi stuffs. this is not proper hi fi but has been reading positive features of it!
Cost? GBP 390! ouch. pinch myself. how on earth m i going to afford that. and I wonder whether it will fit into my tiny room!
Still, somehow, i wanted to upgrade my music system from the Harman/Kardon 2.1 It lacked something. this upgrade could just give me an edge from my existing cd collection.
Audiophile. me?
On n 1 sad thing, my cousin is closing her blog T.T I will miss reading her blog a lot...
take care there, 2 those who read my blog. cheers.
Thursday, 23 July 2009
a vision, of the future
here am i, reading thru a journal 4 my report. and listening 2 ClassicFm relaxing classics (after 11pm) playing Finzi's Eclogue. beautiful it is. have a listen, 10 mins tho!
The vision I had... is to compose songs some day. a friend once said: 我想要和有才華的人一起. 我想想，我到底有什麽才華？到現在，我都想不到。口才？我口吃啦。精靈？不夠。 帥？哈哈笑一下。
Somehow I always hope to compose sometime. I havent play the electric organ 4 8 years now. sometimes i do miss it, and I have forgotten so much about music.
The vision I had, is to write a song, 4 a very important day. Think it will be for the piano. If i am good maybe will add some strings eg violins, cello? Grace L would perform, either playin z violin, or piano.
Hopefully, I will develop some skills on composing sometime. it's definitely one of the things i want to do...
The vision I had... is to compose songs some day. a friend once said: 我想要和有才華的人一起. 我想想，我到底有什麽才華？到現在，我都想不到。口才？我口吃啦。精靈？不夠。 帥？哈哈笑一下。
Somehow I always hope to compose sometime. I havent play the electric organ 4 8 years now. sometimes i do miss it, and I have forgotten so much about music.
The vision I had, is to write a song, 4 a very important day. Think it will be for the piano. If i am good maybe will add some strings eg violins, cello? Grace L would perform, either playin z violin, or piano.
Hopefully, I will develop some skills on composing sometime. it's definitely one of the things i want to do...
Thursday, 16 July 2009
Graduation... of my seniors!
Date : 10/7/2009Time : approx 5.00pm
Venue : Taken in front of Metropolitan Cathedral of Christ The King
Let me intro you to the stars of the day, or the VTs/dentists!
Left: Carrie Chan ; Right: Shen Lee Chan
After enduring the tough 2 weeks of the Finals Exam in early June, they graduated :D
Their parents said I should wear the grad hat for a rehearsal for my graduation next year, that's why we took this pic. Well, I will worry that for next year. Just looking forward to my holidays now! Needs a break from dentistry.
Really glad to know the two of them. It was always fun having them around. I pray that they have a very good future ; and in whatever they want to do they can achieve it.
Also, did you notice something at shen lee's hand? the left hand ah. shinny thingy, can u see it? yes that's it!
Who's her fiance? It's the guy just behind Carrie. He's Jin.
Congrats to Shen Lee and Jin again. Shee Lee, you really did a very good job concealing it from all of us, for months! But it was really a joyous occasion. Congratulations!
if u r really observant, look at Carrie's left hand too. :D
N hopefully this time next year, it's my turn to graduate! XD
Oh, n some friends were making fun of me the other day. She said when I smiled my eyes become small. haha... what to do? that's me lo.
Monday, 13 July 2009
Final Year... here I come!
Got the exam result today. was literally very worried, anxious...! and being in placement didn't help. result came out around 11.50am.
Overall Result: PASS.
phew. relief, very glad. now let me see what the marks are.
Paper I - ahhh... ok :) ; Paper II - ohh... hmmm :/
the self reflection and self critical begins.
The first paper was good. I studied quite hard for that.
The other paper, which was the core of dentistry, was quite a bit lower than the first paper. I had to admit I didn't really revise loads for that. that paper really exposed a lot of my lacking of some knowledge.
Still, I am happy and content. These marks do not count at all towards the final year exam. It's making to the final year that is most important. :D
yet.. I sometimes think, people of my caliber, I had been slacking when it matters the most, especially during exams. Guess i cant b bothered 2 b 100% when it matters. But then again, I can tell myself, even i wasn't at my 100%, i still pass. So... when I am 100%, i can exceed expectation. Ha.. cocky.
我真的能夠追求更高的境界嗎? 太多誘惑，太多其他東西要幹.
nx post, will try 2 upload pic with my fellow seniors ( Shen Lee n Carrie ) in their graduation gown!
Overall Result: PASS.
phew. relief, very glad. now let me see what the marks are.
Paper I - ahhh... ok :) ; Paper II - ohh... hmmm :/
the self reflection and self critical begins.
The first paper was good. I studied quite hard for that.
The other paper, which was the core of dentistry, was quite a bit lower than the first paper. I had to admit I didn't really revise loads for that. that paper really exposed a lot of my lacking of some knowledge.
Still, I am happy and content. These marks do not count at all towards the final year exam. It's making to the final year that is most important. :D
yet.. I sometimes think, people of my caliber, I had been slacking when it matters the most, especially during exams. Guess i cant b bothered 2 b 100% when it matters. But then again, I can tell myself, even i wasn't at my 100%, i still pass. So... when I am 100%, i can exceed expectation. Ha.. cocky.
我真的能夠追求更高的境界嗎? 太多誘惑，太多其他東西要幹.
nx post, will try 2 upload pic with my fellow seniors ( Shen Lee n Carrie ) in their graduation gown!
Saturday, 11 July 2009
To Do List
I got a report 2 write, but let me write down a to do list first to satisfy myself (lazy 2 write report ha!)
- Get those stuffs from salonskincare when I have the money
- Move my blog to blog spot? I find windows space is getting.. very complicated. shouldn't hav upgraded my MSN IM (DONE!)
- Get 3's Skypephone - the cheapest is 50 pounds. I guess it's good money. At least I can call home whenever I want. Having no internet for about 12 days made me realised I still want to call back home and listen 2 my parent's voice the very least.
- Get some decent new clothes when I get bk from summer holz! Joanna H... u r the only 服裝師 I have... mayb Wivinia can also LOL
- Get proteins from myprotein
- Meet more girls, if not i m in danger of being single for too long...
- buy more classical cds. Muggorsky's Picture at the Art Exhibition , Stravinsky's Fire Bird, Brahms, Mahler, Tchaikovskys', Prokofiev
- save money so parents can go Italy trip nx year ( huge challege!)
Thursday, 9 July 2009
New!
Hello! got a bit fed up of using msn space 2 write my blog as it seems to get more and more complicated! things should be kept smart n simple!! hence i decided to use blogspot since some of me friends are using them and I found it quite neat and tidy.
So... stayed tune! will make the transition from writing in space 2 blog spot now on!!
cheers
So... stayed tune! will make the transition from writing in space 2 blog spot now on!!
cheers
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